"Oh, yes. I knew I was weird by the time I was four. I knew I wasn't like other boys. I knew I was more fearful. I didn't like the rough and tumble most boys were into. I knew I was a sissy." - Robert Crumb

Saturday 24 July 2010

A brief history of Claire.

I started cross-dressing when I was 12. There was a teacher at school who, while not even remotely good looking, had fantastic legs which she always had incased in nylons and heels. I spent rather a lot of time looking at them and getting excited and wondering what they would feel like to touch. It eventually dawned on me that my mother also wore tights and so I could just borrow a pair of hers and feel them. They felt great but what did they feel like to wear? Even better. I progressed from there to trying on her bra and panties and dresses and loved the excitement of it.

It didn't last long though as I was growing rapidly and already much taller than her. I never got caught and don't know if she suspected but I had to stop for fear of ripping her clothes while trying to squeeze into them.

I started again in my late teens as I could buy my own tights and did it on and off for a few years. It wasn't until 3 years ago that I started to dress properly. I found myself looking at sissies and shemales online constantly and then I started chatting to Ms Holly, a dominant TV, on Myspace who encouraged me to express my feminine side and it snow balled from there. I bought a wig, some clothes and make-up as she sought to feminize me and turn me into the sissy bitch I craved to be. She got me to buy a dildo and a butt plug and practice daily with both and made me remove my body hair. Then she made me buy gay porn mags and masturbate over them while pleasuring my hole with the dildo. Pretty soon my brain was rewired to associate arousal with faggotry and she made me join several sites to post pictures of myself and turn me into an even bigger sissy faggot.

I listen to feminization hypnosis by the likes of Lady Lita and Isabella Valentine and love the fact that it's re-programming my subconscious and filling my head full of triggers to make me ever more girly. I also watch flash animations via sub-viewer which has a similar effect but more intense. I still find genetic girls sexually attractive but it's amazing how much I now crave cock. I'm just an ultra submissive fuckpuppet who drools over big tools and is happiest on her knees or back. Thank you Ms Holly. I love who I now am.

Claire xxx

6 comments:

  1. Sorry sweetie, but I can't even read the black text on the black background.

    kisses,
    crissi

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  2. Okay, so sometimes the text does show on white background . . . Your story sounds very familiar, dear. May you find your true inner bitch and fully enjoy every big, hard, cum-filled cock you desire.

    Big cummy kisses,
    crissi

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  3. yes, very familiar... i love your blog!

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  4. Thanks ashley. I'm glad you love it and can identify with it. x

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  5. I was fortunate enough to meet a woman who was far more of a man than I had ever pretended to be and recognized me for the sissyfag that I am, and realized my absolute need to be owned, controlled and doninated, with all outer vestiges of or pretenses to masculinity on my part firmly reponded to by my Master's Superior demonstration of the power and art of true Manhood.I now live happily as the property of Master Chris, being supportive of His FTM transition,with my sissy clitty in permanent chastity lockdown, so as to remind me of what I used to pretend to be, and extremely addicted to Master Chris' growing collection of strapon Cocks, all of which see more action than my thingy ever did.I present outwardly as an at times classy, but mostly trailer trashy Divine -emulating fat sissy slut, drag queen, tranny clown sissy play date trainer/ promoter completely denuded of natural hair, dependent on painted
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    I have become and remain:Sissyfag Cockwhore Cumslut and Property of Master Chris, Kendra

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  6. I love being a sissy fag. And take my. Ass. And show everyone how much i love black men to show the women i have been a sissy t since puberty and turns me on that girls know i love. The truth be that i have always lovd. Boys and i need black men to force me to be what i truely want is to b be a slave to say .my thoughts to women i swallow black mans sweet sperm.

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